| Twelve point five |
[Feb. 8th, 2009|06:08 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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[Backdated to January 27 - day after this]
Private to Rosie, Scor, Albus, Evie, Della, David
(written shakily)
I... talked to Callum yesterday... to ask if there was any hope...
I know I'm not perfect... but I... thought maybe... someday... we'd find a way... back to each other.
He... doesn't love me anymore. I... feel... foolish for asking.
I wish I could die... It hurts more than before...
Why did I have to hope ask? I'm so stupid...
/Private
(written with more control)
I've decided to accept the internship. It should be a learning experience. One far way from Callum and this feeling. |
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| Thirteen |
[Feb. 1st, 2009|12:05 pm] |
Private to Evie
Would you be interested in meeting Rhys? I think you might have met him earlier but informally, and so this would be a more formal introduction? He's a musician, just like you, and he's one of Callum's friends...
No pressure though! If you don't want to, just tell me that you don't, okay?
/Private |
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| Twelve |
[Jan. 23rd, 2009|08:33 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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( Private )
Rosie, Albus, Evie -
How did the pizza turn out? What kind did you make? Was it fun? I wish I could have come. I don't think people are mad at me anymore?
Scor -
I think I'm ready! At least, I hope I am! |
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| Eleven |
[Jan. 18th, 2009|08:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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Private to Callum
Can I talk to you somewhere? I- know you're busy, and I- don't think it will take much time? If you're free? Please let me know.
/Private |
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| Ten |
[Jan. 13th, 2009|01:38 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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( Private )
Private to Close Friends (minus Callum)
I received an owl today from Aston Enterprises. They offered me one of their summer internships and I don't know if I should accept or not. I was actually surprised by it. I'm quite positive I didn't apply for it and I thought it was only offered to seventh year students graduating. With the owl came a contract as well, and I think it looks all right... but I don't know anything about contracts. Do any of you? Will you read it for me?
It looks like the internship is in Italy, and all expenses are paid. If they like my work, of which they would like me to bring my journal and portfolio along, the contract can be extended at will. It looks interesting, but I've never been so far from home before. What do you think? Will it help me get over Cal? Will he even notice if I'm gone?
/Private |
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| Nine |
[Jan. 11th, 2009|08:32 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | a little delirious | ] |
Charmed to Close Friends*
Beware! Avalanche on the second floor! I slipped and fell, and now am in the Hospital Wing once again. I find it funny (funny ironic?) that I'm here, first from a troll and now from snow, and not from an explosion in my laboratory but maybe that'll happen next time. Third time's the charm, right? I think that's the correct saying.
Did you know there are eight bones in your wrist? I broke 3 of them and bruised the rest, which Madam Pomfrey mended quite nicely. She even gave me a potion for the pain, which allows me to write with my injured hand, and another one to prevent frostbite, but I don't think stage 2 hypothermia (which I think is what she said?) can cause that. She won't let me near her treatment book any longer though because I was crying and told her I didn't have time to write a will in case bone marrow seeped into my blood from the broken bones and will cause me a pulmonary embolism while she leaves me for five minutes to attend the next injured party.
Rosie, if you read this, could you bring me the books I have on my bed and the large jumper with the initials C.G. labeled inside? Don't tell Callum that I have it still, okay? I pretend it's him keeping me warm when I wear it and I'm afraid he'll want it back.
When you bring me my books, could you help explain to me something? One of them is about contemporary adolescent behavior towards different genders. One -well, actually, most- of the lines confuse me, but I can only remember one now. What does this mean? "If I can make you come with one finger, imagine what I can do with my whole hand." It's in Chapter Six. I understand A is to B as 5A is to 5B, but is there a way to pluralize a verb? I think if I understand that, I can jump into a conversation with Callum and his friends. He said I am welcomed to. Do you think that will help?
And can someone explain to me the purpose of exploding cherries? And why Callum would be popping them before the Second Task? Is that a clue for the task? Some boys had stopped me earlier to ask me about them, but I didn't understand why Prunus aviums are important. Wouldn't it cause a really big mess? I thought Prunus avium are only in season during the summer. Oh! Is there a magical beast that is allergic to cherries? So, Callum has to throw cherries at it?!
And why do you all say I shouldn't change myself? Isn't it human nature to want to improve oneself? Well, I don't think learning grammatical rules (isn't "come" plural already?) and improving myself in herbology is changing myself.
/Private
*Normally, this would currently exclude Cal at the moment but Audrey's not thinking straight due to pain medications, so he can read it if he wants. Close friends include: Rosie, Scor, Albus, Eve, Della, Liam, Liz, Gavin, Katherine [I don't remember if Rhys is one? Let me know, Whit!] |
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| Eight |
[Jan. 7th, 2009|06:33 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [backdated] December 31 |
[Jan. 7th, 2009|06:15 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
Private to Rosie and Scor
Where are you? Can... we talk if you're not busy?
I... Callum and I broke up. Please don't be angry with him. It was my decision.
I just wish it didn't hurt as much as it did... as I do now. I feel as if my heart has been torn out of my chest and someone kicked me in the stomach. I read that is a normal reaction to this sort of event in one's life? Is... that true?
Would it be an inopportune time to joke about who is better at Obliviation Charms? Probably. Forget I mentioned it. I don't really feel like myself right now. I'm sorry...
Rosie, can... I sleep in your bed tonight?
/Private |
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| Six |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|10:37 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sad | ] |
Private to Scor
Does alcohol impede memory formation and contribute to memory loss?
Would it make me happier?
/Private |
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| Christmas Gifts |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|09:44 pm] |
Who: Audrey to gift recipients
When: December 25
Where: Delivered to each recipient's room or common room
What: Audrey sends her gifts out.
Status: Complete
Rating: PG
( Christmas Gifts ) |
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| Five |
[Dec. 16th, 2008|01:03 pm] |
( Private )
Rosie, would you bring me the notes from Herbology? Thank you! |
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| Four |
[Dec. 14th, 2008|06:11 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
Private
Evie just told me-
I know she doesn't realize-
Am I losing my friends?
I really don't want to talk to Rosie-
I don't know if I want to go to the Yule Ball anymore.
/Private
Private to Evie and Della
I have a few errands I have to run in the morning of the 18th, so I won't be able to go to Hogsmeade with you. I might be able to catch up with you at the Three Broomsticks in the afternoon?
/Private
( Private to Rosie )
Private to Elizabeth
If you're not busy this Saturday, could you help me choose accessories for my gown? If I need accessories? I'm not really good with choosing those type of things them, and I think my robes might look better without accessories, but I'm not sure...
/Private |
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[Dec. 1st, 2008|09:37 pm] |
Who: Audrey and her brothers, Jeremy and Nicolas
What: Audrey shows her brothers her gift-in-progress for Cal.
When: December 1 / mid-morning
Where: Ravenclaw Common Room
Rating: PG / PG-13
Status: Complete
( Just a fic for background material ) |
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| Three |
[Nov. 27th, 2008|10:38 am] |
Are Quidditch scouts always pushy aggressive assertive attentive? There is one in particular who doesn't seem to understand that I mean "no" when I say I'm not interested...
Private to Girls
Is that something about boys in general? That they think girls mean "yes" or "maybe" when they say "no"? I've done a few impromptu and amateur psychological studies - just watching and analyzing behavior, definitely nothing invasive - in the past [Private to Rosie on students at Hogwarts /Private to Rosie] and I suppose it could be confusing...
But I don't believe I've ever said one thing and meant another... although I guess if I analyze myself my body language tends to be on the hesitant timid passive side.
/Private
I wonder if it's a joke maybe? An early -albeit a very early- April's Fool joke, although he claims to be of sane mind and has perfect vision...
But I really don't want to be a seeker for Puddlemere United. |
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| Two |
[Sep. 5th, 2008|08:31 pm] |
Private to Rosie and Scor
Do you have any potions for queasiness? It's not the same sort of queasiness I had for OWLs. That was more like excitement and anticipation. This queasiness just feels like my stomach is flipping over in itself.
/Private
Private to Self
I don't think it really should surprise me how many girls know Callum. He is, after all, the Ravenclaw Quidditch Captain. I just didn't expect them to all come up to congratulate him and ask him for help in Ancient Runes and History all at the same time. And they're really pretty. And I'm sure they know more about dating and boys and things boys like than what I know...
/Private
Private to Evie and Della
Would you mind if I hide visit your dormroom this evening? I just need a change of scenery.
/Private |
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| One |
[Aug. 5th, 2008|07:40 am] |
Statistically speaking if all eligible students place their names in the Goblet when the time comes,
those who attend Beauxbatons and Durmstrang have a 1 in 10 chance of being selected as their school's champion
while those who attend Hogwarts have a 1 in 45 chance (40 students in seventh year + approximately 5 students in sixth year who may have turned 17 between September 1 and October 15 as reasoned by 40 students in the year divided by 12 months in the year making an average of 3.33 students born in each month, not counting factors such as birth rates being slightly lower in months of February, March, and April -although I could look into those statistics if someone is curious to know) of being selected as their school's champion. |
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| One |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|09:50 am] |
Private to Evie, Emile, and Della
Is Trivia Pursuit too nerdy silly stupid academic for me to bring to the non-party?
/Private
Private to Scor
You're not making me go to the party tonight, right?
/Private |
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| Schedule |
[Jun. 24th, 2008|12:22 pm] |
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( Schedule ) |
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